Writing

I have never been a good writer. I hate writing because I am awful at it. My writing skills are extremely poor and I have never written a really good paper. Every time I wrote something I would usually never proofread my work because I hate reading my own work. I feel that writing is pointless and boring. Writing is just a skill that has not come easy to me because I have yet to have a breakthrough in my writing.

 A reason for my poor writing skills are probably because of my teachers. The teachers I had were a combination of really soft graders and tough graders, which effected me in high school. My freshman year I had a tough grader and I was consistently getting Cs on my papers. Everything I did to improve did not work and I just gave up on my writing. The next year I had an easy grader because I was getting Bs and sometimes higher. So I thought my writing was getting better, but my English teacher from junior year assured me nothing has changed. My first paper my junior year I got a fifty-nine percent, which was shocking because of the year I had before. My writing keeps bouncing between different teachers so I feel I am not getting honest feedback. I was just unfortunate to get teachers with different grading methods and it caused me to be an awful writer. Some teacher would give me a B on a paper and then another teacher would give me a D on the same paper. That is why I have not had a break through in my writing and that is the reason I am not getting any better.

After my junior year, I truly realized that writing was not for me. I was continuously getting poor grades on my paper and it just hit me that my writing will never improve. My junior year completely destroyed my writing and my confidence in my writing. Especially, when I would get a paper back and it would have little comments and a very poor grade. So I really did not know what I was lacking in or where I needed to make improvements. I would spend multiple hours working on a paper and I felt it was for no reason because the paper would result in a grade that was a D or below. My teacher was very cold and heartless. He really did not care and was not very helpful during or after class. The end of my junior year is where I just come to the conclusion that my writing was the way it was and it would not change. So by my senior year I did not try on any writing assignment because I felt like there was no point. I did the writing assignment just to complete it and put no effort into it, but since I am in college I am hoping that I will finally have the breakthrough I have been looking for in my writing.